Some lessons are hard...actually I haven't learned one yet that wasn't hard. Over the past two years, I have been on a spiritual journey, and I will tell you it has not always been fun. When you start reevaluating yourself and really look at your own flaws and weaknesses, it hurts. I've tried, and I am continuing to try, to be REAL with myself. I am trying to have less of me, more of Him.
One word is repeated to me daily: GRACE. I am not naturally graceful (physically or personality wise, lol). But I believe, like love, grace is something we have to choose every single day. It requires work. It require careful decisions. It requires humility.
I am learning to parent with more grace than punishment. When I do that, I find my children are more kind and loving with each other and me. I am learning to put myself in other people's places before I judge them. When I do that, I find I no longer want to judge them. I am learning that just when I want to give up on someone/something, I have to try again. When I do that, I find that healing happens.
One beautiful thing that I've come to realize about Jesus is that He NEVER refused grace. There was never a person who had an experience with Jesus that wasn't changed. He WILL never refuse grace. It is there; we have to take it. And then we need to give it to others.
So, here's the rub. It's not always easy to show grace. You will wonder what has gotten into you. People will look at you funny. Some will even call you an outright fool. But hey, if you can't be a fool for Jesus, who can you be a fool for?